tired again today but finished the set with some pretty wild clears in level 18. "Pupa", somehow??? 「神話に芽吹く」???? max burning gainen beyond you??????? also yesterday i got "she is my wife super idol mitsuruko-chan remix" which feels wild. that one and the regular mitsuru one were songs i played the low levels a lot when i started. now i've cleared the hardest levels for both! feels good. also some almost clears on "venomous firefly" and 「超越してしまった彼女と其を生み落とした理由」 which like dang. venomous is just more camellia speed chart that i am not great at, and 超越 has really scary alternating jacks and hamburgers but what killed me at the end was just a normal one hand hold+trill so like. that's going to come in soon. maybe even later today if i have a session after a nap. also looking at the previous updates: i have actually cleared One level 19 from the blaster gate. the rest... not so much! but i'm at a point where i feel comfortable putting in attempts here and there. i'm also playing some of the easier to clear 19s to eventually work my way up. not the priority tho. right now i wanna work on clearing the rest of the 18s as best i can; if there's a handful that are just too hard for me i'll get em later. in addition to that i'm also finally trying for higher scores on 18s to gain some rank points. highest i have are a small number of 985s. no S ranks yet but probably not too far off. though rather than just grind my best scores higher i wanna do like i've been doing and try to raise all my scores above 970 as best i can. because grinding the same 5 songs day after day isn't really fun, and doesn't really help me get better. at least not as much as playing a wide variety of charts. the way i see it is that the closer a chart is to max score, the less i have to learn/gain from replaying it. all that to say: bea like sdvx.
really tired and slow feeling session but still some good progress all the same. i have played all the b-tier 18s i have access to and cleared a bit over half of them so that's nice. the plan i think is to get an attempt on every chart once before i go back and retry any. there's about 100 left for me and they'll all be rated harder than the ones i've played thus far but it's ok. every time i lose a clear i get a little closer to overcoming a barrier. if you wanna climb a wall you gotta get to it first right? anyways im still very much gatekept by speed / power but i'm doing what i can. i did manage to clear croix [inf 18] and 666 [exh 18] first try which was very unexpected. it feels like i'm getting better at jacks that you can two-hand so i'm proud of myself for that. my lack of power to do fast button bits is pretty frustrating now but all i can do and all i have to do is keep playing and i will continue improving. no rushing!!!
have cleared all of the 18s in blaster gate. so it's just 19s left there. where they will stay for a little minute lol. still working on clearing the level 18 folder. roughly halfway through (~200 or so cleared), working from those ranked easiest to clear to hardest on community tables. a lot of charts i can clear on first play but others are too fast for my arms or too dense for my eyes/brain lol. will come with time and experience though so i'm not rushing! i tried one of the 19s in blaster just for fun and well. it was not fun lmao. too much stuff and too fast for me right now. so i am in No Hurry! just going to keep doing whatever's fun and get to harder stuff when i'm more comfortable. remembering that failure is part of the process (:
small sdvx update but i finally got clears on gerbera (mxm 18) and chernobog (mxm 18) today after like weeks and lots of blaster gauge charges. gerbera felt like i got a good handle on it. not very accurate and not able to keep up with the speed but it felt like i earned it. chernobog. i still don't know what's going on in that one. i do not like that chart lol. so now the only 18s left in my blaster gate are 準備運動 (warm-up exercise) and キュリオシティ (curiosity). the former i know what strat i need to do for it, it's just very fast. so i'll get it eventually. i don't even remember what happens in curiosity i think it's just more speed lol. i'm doing alright in 18s except when my arms physically cannot go fast enough haha. but we will get there! in time i will be able to hit the bits i can't right now. and it will be sooo good.
idk what this will be like going forward. i want it to uhh look nice later lol but for now i just wanna set a foundation. i really enjoy working on this site when i find the time. it feels nice working on a task that feels rewarding in that i get to see a web site come together. i haven't been updating recently bc i've either been at work, playing sdvx, playing ufo50 (have only played like 5 games still lol), playing nayuta no kiseki kai which i just finished the main story of today - i cried so much it is a wonderful game, and iunno. other stuff you have to do to live. i watched a nice movie with my wife for my birthday last week. we watched Pom Poko aka 平成狸合戦ぽんぽこ. it was wonderful. cried lots. really really funny film but also very emotional and real. i don't look at squirrels out in the yard the same since. definitely recommend. tonight i made a curry using pumpkin for the first time. it came out okay i think. i'm pretty sure the pumpkin i bought being a "pie pumpkin" made it not really the kind best suited for chopping up into a curry. the... body? shell? whatever you call the pumpkin with no seeds and no skin. it's like a potato bell pepper. it ended up with a pretty light flavor and a bit grainy in texture. preparing it took so much longer than the curry i made a week ago with just onion potato and carrots. that one i was surprised it finished so easily. this one. i had the pan heating on the stove while i cut everything. i didn't think it would take long, you see. well it took a long time. and when i added everything the pot was Very Hot and started burning my green onions almost immediately. and it is only while writing this i remember that i forgot to add garlic!!! no!!! put me back i can make it better next time!!! oh well lessons learned. i like making curry now. i made one to have on my birthday and was really impressed with the outcome. and it's nice to cook something and have plenty left over for the following days. i enjoy cooking but if it's a long involved process it gets pretty miserable for me. i'm not very good at any of this so it takes lots of time and energy and really tires me out. a salt and chilli chicken recipe i like to make with my wife is delicious but takes soo long that i have started to dread making it, for example. although to ramble even more on this post i thought would be like 2 sentences: making a big dinner and getting tired might help me sleep at night. even more so after a day at work. so maybe i can change how i think about it. and i'll almost certainly be able to prepare things faster the longer i work on cooking for myself. if i can save time chopping vegetables i will be set. and at this point i forgot that i wanted to cook lentils in this curry! i didn't even buy them! i didn't put them on my list because i forgot! it was a disaster. it was nice though.
so yeah idk that's what i've been up to. i wanna work on prettying up this site. doing little things like putting background colors on the navigation buttons. also i know the box sizes (idk if its padding or what im too tired to look into it) on the links where i put enough text that it wraps to next line kinda stack on top of themselves. specifically on those pages where i didn't copy the whole navigation bar and just put a take me back guy. so i wanna address that at some point. i wanna add images? iunno what i would add. i could put a picture of beato but like i don't own that. i could draw one to use though. or one of my commissions should work fine. i like how others have their sites with like their pfps and stuff so i will see about implementing some amount of that myself. for this page specifically i wanna have categories like this is the rambling zone but there could be one that's specifically movie review focused based on a twitter thread i had of a bunch of 1 sentence or less reviews of films i've watched with my wife. lots of them are just a couple dozen of sobbing emoji. i like it it's one of my favorite things i've done on a site i dislike. but it could be fun to just. write a lil here and there about stuff i'm watchin or playin or whatever. but for categories there could be a table of contents sort of thing to make it easier to reach those sections. i'll pretty likely just whenever i get in a mood to work on this just spontaneously make some page look nicer. bc a lot of what i have is like, it looks pretty good. and it functions i think as much as i need it to. but i wanna have it personalized further in the future. i like to think the way i write stuff is very bea. i want to somehow visually make the site more bea. but for the time being i'm mostly focusing on making it look nicer just overall. anyways! "short post" over!